Graft #5

Things

As I sit and look in my room at all the things I have, it makes me remember what actually something actually ment to me when I was little. I have to laugh because things that ment so much to me are dumb little things like a birthday card, a old pair of shoes or even a dumb little jacket that I use to look so "cute" in. None of that today means anything to me, except one thing that I recieved when I was about two years old, and maybe even younger; my first teddy bear. My grammie won me this teddy bear out of one of those machines that you can play that have stuffed animals in it.

I remember exactly what it use to look like. It was a perfect little stuffed bear, it had green and white stripes on the pants, a brown stuffed football on the left arm, and cute little black nose. In my eyes it was the cutest little thing in the world. It was my protection, my angel. As I grew up and got older, so did my teddy bear. It started to loose stuffing, holes grew in it, the football got ripped off, my dog ate the nose, and worst of all it turned into a old ragged thing that to this day I still love.

This teddy bear represents so many things and there will never be a day that it get thrown away. This bear represents love from my grammie. I remember when I use to live with her while my parents were trying to find a house to buy. One day they found one and we all moved out of my grammies house into a blue house by the railroad tracks. My Mom, Dad, and sister went to stay in the house for their first time, but I wanted to spend one more night with my grammie. The next morning when she was bringin me to my new house, I can remember having tears run down my face. I was heartbroken that I had to leave my grammmie and move into a new house, but I can remember exactly what she told me. She pulled the car over and said this to me "Katie- I'm always there with you no matter what. When your sad at night hug your bear and it will be me giving you a hug, give your bear a good night kiss when you miss me and it will be me giving you one back, when you need someone to talk to and I aint home, talk to your bear, it will help calm you. No matter where you are, or where I am, we will always be together. So need to cry, whipe your eyes and smile because I am always going to be here with you until the day that I die." From that night on I did everything that she told me to do when I sad. It slept with me every single night, and til this day it still does.

This bear ment more to me than just a little thing that I would sleep with every night so I wouldn't have nightmares. It was the first thing that my grammie ever got me out of a toy machine, and it happened to be my favorite stuffed animal. It's in ruff shape today with it's nose missing and it's leg all mangled and a rip in it's belly but it represents love, securtiy, and all those great feelings that you share with your grammie when your younger.